I was awakened to many things.

I, for once, trapped myself in an illusion. Because of my idiotic actions.

I knew that I will never surpass this person, for I blinded myself with something I was warned of.

I am incapable of giving trust to people. Even I don't trust some of my friends.

I am in the brink of bankruptcy. Correct me, our family is.

I wondered when will the war between me and my brother have a ceasefire.

I want to know what really is happening in my surroundings. I hate it when I woke up in the morning, totally clueless of what's happening.

I knew that someone in the past will come to haunt not only me, but also those people who took his/her place.

I want to have a limitation, but there are factors that forbid me to do so.

And lastly, I knew that I don't deserve, will not see and will not receive the warm smile that he shows off to others. I'm jealous.

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